Ergh.

Well, I guess I was speaking too soon yesterday when I was talking about 'effortlessly raw' heh!

I had the worst day, I couldn't think straight at school and had a horrible headache so I went home. Then I kind of collapsed with the stress of everything and cried for a few hours. And when I get all emotional...that's when I hit the damn bread. Its always the wholemeal pita breads that get me! So I had a few.

Made the headache worse, unsurprisingly.

It made it clear to me that it is my emotions that throw me off track and nothing else. When I'm emotional I grab at food, and bread is the quick and comforting option. I just need to get more organized.

The onion sesame bagels I had yesterday (raw buckwheat ones) were amazing so I think I just need to organize myself and keep prepared. If I have a raw carb source available at all times I'll be fine.

Oh, and I found out there's basically no chance of me getting into the college that I want to go to so that made me feel worse, especially as its my own stupid fault for getting the application in late. The only source of hope is that my mum said when she mentioned that I had good predicted grades to the receptionist she put her through to 'have a word' so hopefully they will at least look at my application.

Oh, I feel so crap.